She was browsing thru her magazine. Noticing the entertainment section of the thick magazine. But her mind was not there. She was thinking of what her friend had told her last evening. A frustrating conversation. Moods were heating up. Not her fault, she thought. She had been using this word 'closeness' very often recently. She don't even know why. Perhaps it's because of the events which happened around her. They had, one way or another, influenced her mood and mindset in handling things. Good events leave the mind faster. But bad events will always stay in the mind.
She wanted to show her displeasure straight in the face of the 'accused'. But she can't bring her heart to do so. Because, she knows that, this action would make the people around to be hurt and sad. And, that's not her mission in life. She wants those around her to be happy, which is why she seldom flare up on small matters. She jolly well know that by pulling a long face, people involved in this cycle will be trapped in between 2 sides. And a difficult decision has to be made. Sacrifices will also emerge, and the worst will come. Or is she thinking too much?
she had known the meaning of 'true colours' after all these ordeals. she is,utterly disappointed at the response she got from her friend. Not her friend's problem, she knows. She's disappointed in the contents of their conversation. A disgrace, she thought. 'Do we know him/her well enough? why is he/her behaving so different from the usual self?' these thoughts were running through her mind that whole evening.
She understands that it's the process of growing up. Thinkings starts to be mature. That's why she had thought of the consequences if she lose control of herself.
She had witnessed herself what had happened that caused her diappointment. The vocal from the 'accused' and the body language tells all. Eagerness is in the air. It's always been there for the past few weeks. The thirst for touch, feel and emotion support is filling up the space available for her to chat with her peers. She had been warned to spend more time with her friends. She's been trying very hard. But no progress. There's an inner voice shouting out to her whenever there's a shadow behind her friends. 'This is not the time for you to talk. Leave at once!'
A pair of warning eyes is always with her peers. Looking out for trails of their behaviour. She find it weird. She had been warned to spend more time with her peers. But why are the eyes still staring at her? Wanting to find out the contents, she supposed. These puzzled her a lot. She was warned, wasn't she? Why is there no room for her private life?
Well, she guessed the queries would only be answered by the 'warn-er'.
