Friday, September 22, 2006
cooper-ing
cooper-ing
kinda worried for Meiling and Peiwen
who both happened to be in Thailand for holiday now...
just on their departure day, the Thailand Coup started
and stupid me, had thought that they're already
back in town
until i traced back my SMS-es this morning
and realise they're still stuck in Thailand!!!
no way can I contact them...
hai... i can only wait for them to come back in one piece... haha...
had a packful day...
went through a number of briefings
as well as meetings...
everything is so prudent and accurate...
seems like nothing can go wrong...
our real fight will be on Monday... hai...
unpacking, first packing and final packing...
with quality check, quantity check in between
and a final check... hai...
an extra phoneline will be connected to the ground floor
so that in any case, information can be passed down to
the admins asap
but don't think that it's gonna be a boring day
cos, we have our entertainment system brought down...
hahaha...
music will be played in the packing room...
all of us nearly went blind today...
my eyes started to have double vision...
it's time for me to go for my regular eye check...
i hope my asthi and mynopia has decreased...
and time for me to change my specs...
or increase my specs collection... hahahaha...
and time for treatment for my contacts...
hahahahahahaha...
spoke at : 11:18 PM
Thursday, September 21, 2006
falling sick
falling sick
after this attachment, i guess i will:
go blind from excess exposure of computers
break my spine from all those turnings
grow more white hair from excessive thinkings
have high blood pressure from the rage caused by subordinates
have more time for myself and friends
cos I have yet to fulfill my promise with Ah Hua and the rest
I have spend lesser time with them these days...
it's something which i feel so guilty about
Ah Liao is still waiting for my reply
I hope to have time for them too...
Thank God no special arrangement need to be made
for the meetings... hee...
and i feel so bad for intruding the life... hai...
spoke at : 4:55 PM
Monday, September 18, 2006
solemn
solemn
the atmosphere was so solemn...
it was unlike the crappy and bubbly feeling...
perhaps because i'm the cause of it...
for the first time
that kind of expression appeared...
don't think i don't know anything...
just that i don't expose them out...
i keep everything to myself...
clowns... that's a very sad thing...
is there really a difference between us and them?
at least i know i'm not one of them...
calling it quit?
don't ever harbour that thought...
it'd be too wasteful...
i know the whole behaviour have been contaminated...
i have sensed that too...
i don't dare to say you are the one inspired me
perhaps i would say when it's time...
but the only one who know what i wanna be is you...
i've kept it to myself...
i can sense the reluctance of leaving
as well as the sadness inside...
i found out so much and i gained a lot...
it's something i can't learn from books...
all these come from experience...
perhaps i should really reconsider it...
i have plenty of time...
bubbly is only the shield... solemn is the real armour
that is exactly same as me...
Yi Xiang actually asked me why am i so cheerful...
i'm not cheerful... i just good at concealing...
perhaps you are same as me...
but don't think i can't sense it even a smile was put on...
no worries...
it's always be kept between you and me
as promised!
spoke at : 11:01 PM
Friday, September 08, 2006
i'm not happy
i'm not happy
yes... i'm not happy...
especially with what i'm doing...
and i understand why the previous batch
feel the same way too...
should i count myself as the unfortunate lot
or should i be grateful that i'm under good supervision?
at least there's still space for a breather...
since impartial is very impt to me now,
i shall be from now be...
even if the superiors are at fault,
i'll not be afraid to tell or to offend them...
for they are the ones who taught me all these...
we shall all die together if one should die...
i rmbr someone said:
'This is the time for you to try anything as long as it's smth good.'
yet, a string is pulling us...
if it's a loose string, i don't mind...
but these strings are tight...
the tightness makes people want to break free...
which is why rebellious is what was shown...
with restrictions, how can we try things with our thinkings
and mindset as well as a little of our instinct...
in fact, our thinkings are right...
hypothesis will always be hypothesis...
fact will always be fact
results have shown that the 'fact' have surpass the 'hypothesis'...
moreover, i'll become a sprinter soon...
with every day of mad rush...
pants, perspire,aches,heart trobbing
all these are common matters to us...
nightmares have started to appear...
even i got it too...
now, i've become so timid...
when the phone rings, my heart will skip...
every mail i received, i'll check the sender...
and my nerves are so tight...
i'll go crazy one of these days... i guess...
this is the only channel where i can vent them
off my shoulders...
and perhaps a meal with her will help too...
since she usually make sense in her words...
spoke at : 10:44 PM
a week
a week
can't believe i can survive without blogging for a week...
a lot of things happened
within this faithful week...
i underwent a lot of stress
and am going through it now...
seems like it's more stressful than facing exams...
this stress is mentally...
and it's coming from all sides...
i need co-operations from all people...
as well as the trust needed...
do flaws look better than perfect???
i know crediting is very impt...
but during crediting, must there be an insult...
everything that i do seems to be wrong...
sandwich is not a good feeling...
especially between authority and good working evironment...
i have to sacrifice one...
should i sacrifice myself to fulfill harmony
or should i destroy the harmonious party
and sees every one as strangers
where no relationship is be built
in fact, i shouldn't mingle too well with them...
but i have one thing to say:
I AM HUMAN TOO!!!!
I WANT MY LIFE!!!!
spoke at : 8:47 PM