i'm not happy
yes... i'm not happy...
especially with what i'm doing...
and i understand why the previous batch
feel the same way too...
should i count myself as the unfortunate lot
or should i be grateful that i'm under good supervision?
at least there's still space for a breather...
since impartial is very impt to me now,
i shall be from now be...
even if the superiors are at fault,
i'll not be afraid to tell or to offend them...
for they are the ones who taught me all these...
we shall all die together if one should die...
i rmbr someone said:
'This is the time for you to try anything as long as it's smth good.'
yet, a string is pulling us...
if it's a loose string, i don't mind...
but these strings are tight...
the tightness makes people want to break free...
which is why rebellious is what was shown...
with restrictions, how can we try things with our thinkings
and mindset as well as a little of our instinct...
in fact, our thinkings are right...
hypothesis will always be hypothesis...
fact will always be fact
results have shown that the 'fact' have surpass the 'hypothesis'...
moreover, i'll become a sprinter soon...
with every day of mad rush...
pants, perspire,aches,heart trobbing
all these are common matters to us...
nightmares have started to appear...
even i got it too...
now, i've become so timid...
when the phone rings, my heart will skip...
every mail i received, i'll check the sender...
and my nerves are so tight...
i'll go crazy one of these days... i guess...
this is the only channel where i can vent them
off my shoulders...
and perhaps a meal with her will help too...
since she usually make sense in her words...