Shocked
Was browsing through blogs until i came across an entry...
was totally shocked with the content.
Couldn't believe my eyes...
i've went pass her thousands of times in school.
Dropping her smiles whenever i see her.
My impression is : optimistic, cheerful, cute(doesn't mean u are ugly).
A total kidult(an adult who doesn't lose the characters of a kid).
Haha! Reminded me of the past.
And also my thinkings.
Life is fragile but the Will is strong.
My grandfather.
A very very friendly and kind-hearted person.
I can darely say, he didn't do anything bad (except he smoked) in his entire life!
But he's called to be with God last year.
He's got a very strong will.
He waited for all of us to finish our exams before passing on.
He do not want to trouble us and affect our results.
I know he's been suffering for a long period.
And bit his teeth to force a smile whenever we visit.
On that faithful day, he let go of the grip that's been holding him for months.
Left us for the afterlife.
Though we expected this day to come, we find it hard to accept it.
That day was the longest day i've experienced before.
Time seemed to have stopped when he's heart quit its job.
Everyone seemed to be trying hard to remember his look
before he's sealed and cremated.
I am no exception.
But no matter how hard i try,
My memory keep bringing me back to the time when i'm 7 or 8.
With him in big black specs,
Sitting in the kitchen reading his papers and puffing.
He knows we are sensitive to smoke.
Whenever his smoke enter our 'territory',
we would hold our nose high.
Come to think of that, i feel so bad.
We had made remarks about him smoking.
We shouldn't have complained.
We should have let him enjoy it.
If only I have mature thinkings then.
Trying very hard not to shed a tear whenever i talk about my grandfather.
But it's hard.
I have so much apologies in my heart.
I'm not crying now.
Tears are in eyes. Not to give them a chance to surface.
I'm sure his enjoying his life now.