suicide
Sorry to report something so bad the first thing i blog after 2 days of absence...
i had 'witnessed' a suicide right at the garbage chute next to my house unit.
i was watching Happy Sunday then...
where S.H.E were carrying out an activity.
Heard a very loud 'BOOM'...
went to my window and looked down...
i couldn't see anything. was blocked by the shelter.
at 4.45pm, heard a very bitter and loud cry from a guy...
could make out that he's in the mid-40s.
crying very bitterly...
Mummy and i thought that he's going to commit suicide soon.
I've even prepared to call the police.
Then Mummy went out to check...
She ran back into house a few seconds later and said that someone had jumped!
I was shocked!
Being 'kpo', i went out too!
saw the body was covered by a blue camping tent marked 'POLICE'.
Within minutes, news of the suicide spreaded from blocks to blocks.
My house phone was ringing.
One of my mum's friends asked me :
"I heard that someone jumped off from your block arh?"
And not long after that, the identity of the deceased was known.
She lived a floor above mine.
But not the same series of units.
It was spreaded that she couldn't stand the pressure of looking after her elderly mother who was discharged from hospital not long ago.
Reporters were spotted at the scene.
The police had lifted the blue camping tent.
i was so nervous!
i feel so stupid.
i thought that the police didn't covered the body with a layer of white plastic.
When they lifted the tent, i'm so afraid of facing the body.
hence, i sent my mum to take a look.
Then, mummy ran back into house when the police's going to lift the white plastic.
She said she don't want to see the body staring at her.
the 'landing' place of the deceased is so 'heng' at the common way of the residents.
Every one walks there. No short cut.
at the loading and unloading slot.
the place when where i usually drop off from the cab
and where children wait for their school bus.
i hope the family would perform some rituals there.
this would let the residents feel more safe spiritually when they walk pass.
Not long after the body was covered,
bitter howlings from dogs are heard.
these are not the usual barks from dogs.
those barks make your heart hairy.
Now, the police car is still there.
Body still lying there.
CIDs are still on the spot pointing upwards.
trying to determine the exact floor she had jumped off.
Her sandals are still at the platform of the second floor.
The sun is setting. Night is coming soon.
How long will the investigation take?
I don't know.
Will the news focus on this?
Perhaps.
Newspaper?
Maybe.
It takes a lot of courage to put that step out to the air.
But this is not encouraged by me.
NEVER sought to suicide, thinking that it'll solve all problems.
It'll NEVER solve the problems.
In fact, it'll cause an agony and bitterness to your loved ones FOREVER.
May she find her peace and carefree in Heaven.